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She addressed Judge Steven ONeill only briefly, letting her written words do most of the talking.
Your honor, I have testified, I have given you my victim impact statement.
Her full remarks were shared privately with ONeill and then made public to members of the media on Tuesday.
Bill Cosby took my beautiful, healthy young spirit and crushed it.
Read her powerful words transcribed below.
At the time of the assault, I was 30 years old, and a fit, confident athlete.
I was strong and skilled, with great reflexes, agility, and speed.
Dozens of American colleges lined up to offer me basketball scholarships, and I chose the University of Arizona.
The only downside was that I missed my family, and developed severe homesickness.
I had always enjoyed a special relationship with my grandparents.
Not only had I grown up in their home, but I spoke Greek before I spoke English.
The homesickness quickly evaporated.
Going pro took my athletic training to a whole new level.
I also made all the travel arrangements and went to tournaments with the team and support staff.
I knew who I was and I liked who I was.
How wrong I was.
I could not move my arms or legs.
I couldnt speak or even remain conscious.
I was completely vulnerable, and powerless to protect myself.
After the assault, I wasnt sure what had actually happened but the pain spoke volumes.
The shame was overwhelming.
Self-doubt and confusion kept me from turning to my family or friends as I normally did.
I felt completely alone, unable to trust anyone, including myself.
I made it through the next few weeks by focusing on work.
The sound of his voice over the phone felt like a knife going through my guts.
I trusted that once I left, things would get back to normal.
Instead, the pain and anguish came with me.
I was always a sound sleeper but now I couldnt sleep for more than two or three hours.
I felt exhausted all the time.
As far as anyone could tell, I was preoccupied with my studies.
Then the nightmares started.
I dreamed that another woman was being assaulted right in front of me and it was all my fault.
I became more and more anxious that what had happened to me was going to happen to someone else.
Then one morning I called my mother on the telephone to tell her what had happened to me.
She had heard me cry out in my sleep.
She wouldnt let me put her off, and insisted that I tell her what was wrong.
She wouldnt settle for anything less than a complete and truthful explanation.
After we launched civil claims, the response from Mr. Cosbys legal team was swift and furious.
It was meant to frighten and intimidate and it worked.
My hard-working middle-class parents were accused of trying to get money from a rich and famous man.
I felt traumatized all over again and was often in tears.
These exact same feelings followed me throughout both criminal trials.
These character assassinations have caused me to suffer insurmountable stress and anxiety, which I still experience today.
I still didnt know that my sexual assault was just the tip of the iceberg.
Now, more than 60 other woman have self-identified as sexual assault victims of Bill Cosby.
The pressure was enormous.
But I had to testify.
When the first trial ended in a mistrial, I didnt hesitate to step up again.
I know now that I am one of the lucky ones.
Bill Cosby took my beautiful, healthy young spirit and crushed it.
Ive never married and I have no partner.
My dogs are my constant companions, and the members of my immediate family are my closest friends.
My life revolves around my work as a therapeutic massage practitioner.
Many of my clients need help reducing the effects of accumulated stress.
I help many others too people with Parkinsons, arthritis, diabetes, and so on.
Some of my clients are in their 90s.
I help them cope with the ravages of old age, reducing stiffness, aches and pains.
I like my work.
I like knowing that I can help relieve pain and suffering in others.
I know that helps me heal too.
I no longer play basketball but I attempt to stay fit.
Instead of looking back, I am looking forward to looking forward.
I want to get to the place where the person I was meant to be gets a second chance.
I know that I still have room to grow.
Transcripts of their statements were shared following the sentencing.
Janice Dickinson
The harrowing memory of the rape continues to this day.
I have reoccurring nightmares, I wake up in fear, I fear the dark.
I struggle to discuss this even with my beloved husband of six years.
The rape shattered my ability to trust.
It made me extremely wary of becoming an actress.
It affected my work.
It affected my lifestyle.
I lost a lot of spunk.
I lost some of my effervescent attitude and lightness, qualities required of a model.
I became less motivated to meet new people, a huge component of my daily work as a model.
You dont move away from the jobs you run towards the work.
But the rape is etched into my soul.
Therapy has helped some but it has not helped to restore my innocence.
I was never the same.
I will never be the same.
Lise-Lotte Lublin
In 2014, I learned of the heinous crime Bill Cosby committed against me.
Since that time, my humanity has been tested.
Now, if I cry, it is from strength and power.
He forced my silence with drugs and memory loss.
He committed a crime against me.
Try starting with an apology.
The time is now.
It is not too late to make amends to me and my family.
An unexpected fork in the road for you.
I am free of you, I have moved on and I forgive you.
I have the strength to give you permission to ask me for my forgiveness.
I have the love for myself to launch the door and allow you to ease your own suffering.
I will give you permission to address me and I will listen when you apologize for hurting me.
You know in order for God to save you, you have to do your part.
Maybe you will find peace when you make amends with me.
Remember you do not have very long to redeem yourself at this late age in your life.
Use your time in confinement wisely.
You are a convicted criminal, everyone knows it, and everyone knows what you did to me.
Chelan Lasha
I have waited 32 years for this day, hoping my nightmare would go away.
I prayed for him to get the maximum sentence of 30 years.
If he does not receive the maximum of 30 years, I will move on.
But he must finally start taking full responsibility for his actions.
He did not care how old I was.
I was young and innocent and only 17 years old.
Why should he receive mercy just because he is 81 years old.
I will find peace of mind as long as Mr. Cosby serves prison time for his actions.
My mother always told me, dont do the crime if you cant do the time.
My final thanks goes to you, Mr. Cosby.
Yes, I said thank you, Mr. Cosby.
Thank you for your enormous ego and arrogance, for without it we might not be here today.
So once again, I thank you.
It is for that reason I am asking the court to sentence you to the fullest term possible.
Its a constant battle and one that is a direct result of Mr. Cosbys vile actions.
Choosing to come forward was not only liberating but a costly decision as well.
Your Honor, Mr. Cosby has not expressed one ounce of remorse or regret for his actions.
His arrogance continues to this day.
