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Amanda Bynes has reemerged from her college cocoon for an in-depth new check-in withPaper.
In a new profile, she reveals that shes nowapproaching four years sober(mazel!)
and has elaborated on the addiction that led to her very public meltdown.
It affected my brain in a different way than it affects other people.
It absolutely changed my perception of things, she explains.
I cant turn back time but if I could, I would.
It makes me feel so horrible and sick to my stomach and sad.
Everything I worked my whole life to achieve, I kind of ruined it all through Twitter.
But, she adds, its definitely notTwittersfault its my own fault.
(A film she unfortunately says also inadvertently triggered a deep depression over her appearance in drag.)
But [the producers] were like, Hes so much older than all of you!
And I was like, It doesnt matter!
